You know...
sometimes getting too addicted to anime brings you quite a lot of pain?
I don't know about the others,
but I, myself, someone who wants a lot of impossible-wishes,
really want a lot of...impossible-wishes that's impossible to be fulfill...
really, more impossible than having more McDonald than customers...
What's my 'pain'?
It's too embarrassing to say it out loud...
I'm pretty sure everyone will think I'm a total freak...
A crazy nut-crack...
Actually, having all these 'pain' stuck in my heart really makes it hard for me breath sometimes...
Sometimes I just feel like running out on a rainy day, burst into tears, scream to top of my lungs and...
I can't continue that sentence...
It's impossible for me to do so...
It's impossible for anyone to do so...
Miracle ?
It might happen if the Sun ever turn into blue color and the Moon turn into flower-shape...
Right now, I still have the urge of wanting to cry...
I know it's totally stupid crying over things that doesn't exist...
but to me...it's always there...
it's like the one and only things that ever make me smile and laugh FOR REAL...
Something that really expanded my point of view to the world...
Anime is for kid ?
F*ck off, you @ssholes...
say that again and I'm seriously ripping your stinken' limb off...
I've got enough of people saying it's for kid...
Anime is bad for us...
What the hell is you problem !?
It's not a crime to like anime...
It's not a crime to do what you like to do !
I don't even care if dudes likes to read p0rno magazine or watch online p0rn clip...
I don't care...
It's quite disgusting but still, it's something that oneself enjoys...
I don't get it why...people just have to make fun of each other...
Is it that nice to do that ?
Does I gives you super power ?
Do you earn more money that way ?
Obviously, no...
I sometimes...hate myself for getting more and more addicted to anime...
I don't like this feeling...it's so...painful...it's so...I don't know...
It's sometimes driving me crazy...
Sometimes I can't even smile when I receive money or getting complimented...
I'm not blaming it on anime...
I'm not blaming it on anyone...
I'm blaming myself...
I don't even know if I regret or not regret watching and getting addicted to anime anymore...
I'm searching for my answer...
I've been searching for it ever since this feelings developed inside me...
Until today...
I'm still searching...
No answer...
No clue...
No hint...
No help...
No support...
No...nobody to grab me when I fall...
Otaku = Freak
Really ? Fine then, freak shall be what I am...
[It's killing me...slowly...tearing me apart...and it's not even virtual love....]
