I'll tell you reader this,
I'm not the type that shows what I really feel,
I don't always tell the truth,
I can't show how much I actually care...
I just can't find the courage to do all these,
sometimes thinking back of what happened,
it makes me so frustrated that I wish I could travel back time to fix that moment.
But of course, that's possible.
Yes, I lie in both mentally and physically.
I like putting on an act.
I always do.
Everyone buys it.
And that's why,
it's frustrating.
I don't understand why, but it's just is!
It maybe just be my imagination,
but I always feel far apart from the others,
even though we're like inches away...
I know I'm not one of the best friend you will be able to find,
there's always someone better.
But, really, I do try...I tried...
But I just can't show it! Not my feelings, not my true self...
Maybe that's why I never was able to fall in love, I do want to try, at least once...
I know I'm still young to do so...
But seeing those who already were, made me envy them,
they look so...happy...
I know it's so not my character to say all this crap- but,
I do, also, have a soft-side.
Everyone does!
And I, also, have LOTS of secret, not only mine but others too.
That goes the same with my problems and worries.
There's always no one who wants- willing to listen to me.
And then, there's that, I didn't feel like telling anyone anymore.
I've kept secrets about my childhood till my teenage life until this very moment,
and on will it go.
I tried to find someone to talk to, once in a while.
That right person, but no luck, there was no one 'there'.
I don't blame anyone, yes, no one but myself.
Life isn't as easy as they show in TV show, anime, drama or fairy tale.
Exactly, NO fairy tale.
I honestly don't mind living in one, not one bit.
"Maybe some day you will be able to find someone who will listen to all your problem and worries, and that might also be your Mr.Right!"
Do you seriously thought that I, of all people, would fall for that?
Okay okay- I think I'm getting too emotional right now- maybe I should stop here, for today...
Well then, good night to those who are in Asia and good day to those who are on the other side of the earth.
